Saturday, November 6, 2010

A Tale of Infertility

My husband I tried for 3.5 years to have KLV. She was worth the wait but the wait was not fun. We hope for another munchkin but there is no guarantee.

For all you baby making machines, no worries - there is no jealously. It’s wonderful you can make babies easily, we all should, darn it!

For all of us who have struggled, there is resentment when baby making models ask all the time, “how’s that going?” My token answer, “The stork hasn’t stopped at our house – have you seen him?”

Honestly, no one wants to hear how I watch over my cycle like a hawk and drop my head each month when Aunt Flow comes.

Being able to conceive a baby is wonderful. For those of you who have adopted – you are amazing. And those women who’ve conceived without the distress – you are amazing as well! For those women who are trying or cannot conceive – you are in my heart.

Thoughts, feelings, motherly reactions?

22 comments:

  1. Grandmotherly reaction....it's heartbreaking for us as well. My daughter has infertility issues too and it broke my heart every time she had a failed attempt. She has a couple of medical issues ('cause one just ain't enough) and her sorrow became mine. We have been blessed the past week with a little boy though and I know that every shot, pill, and failed pregnancy test has faded into the distance for her for now. But I know she wants her little boy to have a sibling and I'm already praying.

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  2. TV... you are AMAZING too! I'm sorry that you have this struggle and I am sending prayers your way. You are an awesome mom with a beautiful little girl and I hope a sibling is in the cards for you both.

    By the way, those pics of KLV on the side bar are adorable! Are they new?

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  3. prayers and hugs your way...you are a beautiful Mother and hope a precious baby comes your way soon. What a struggle-I have a very dear friend to me that struggled for three years, while her friends, myself included, were off making babies like crazy, she and her husband could not. I felt awful...the guilt and feeling as though I didn't want to share pregnancy joys with her, for fear that it might make her more upset. THANKFULLY, with help from IVF treatments, they have a beautiful set of twins :) Hang in there..you have been blessed with a precious child and hope the "Stork visits soon"...cute by the way!

    Thank you for sharing such a personal struggle with all of your readers :)

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  4. It's heartbreaking when you are trying everything you can for something you want so badly and it just isn't happening. We were lucky to conceive Georgia - more than we knew at the time. She was our one shot in a million chance and we were blessed to have a happy and healthy baby. I truly believe that your time is going to come. I'm sending up prayers for you to have a little brother or sister for KLV!
    Thank you for sharing your struggle.

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  5. I just want to say how adorable your little girl is. Those pictures are the side made me melt. What a beautiful thing that we mamas are wired to look at a child and feel an overwhelming slew of love and emotion for basically any of them. Helpless, needing love and direction and protection. I have several friends who have also been trying for years. Some have adopted, some tried IVF etc. but, I do ache for each of you. I wish I could pray and just ask God to kindly give you all the babies that you so deserve. I will be praying for you specifically though now that I know. Thanks for being real and hugs to you today.

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  6. I love the new pictures you put up! She is just a DOLL! I never knew how much I would love my child until I actually became a mom. It took me nearly a year to get pregnant for the first time because I have irregular cycles and I did not want to try any other methods but the good old trial and error. When I did get pregnant, I lost my twins at 13 weeks. It was awful. I know so many women miscarry and it's "no big deal" but I still get worked up thinking about it. My Lily is such a joy for us. We are SOOO grateful to have her!

    I wish you a visit from the stork very soon! You are amazing, too, Ms. TV!

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  7. I have been on both sides of the fence, oddly. The first came easily, the second came almost as easily, but there is no third. I have had many more miscarriages than children. But I know I am lucky.

    Hoping the stork stops at your house soon :)

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  8. I am loving the new pics you put up as well...she is the cutest!! I hope the stork visits you soon! My friend has been trying for almost a year and I finally had a chance to talk with her about it, and it breaks my heart because we had no problems and here I am trying to avoid getting pregnant since Luke is only 3 months while she is having so much trouble, I will send my fertility vibe your way... I really hope you guys get a visit from the stork soon!! :)

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  9. It's one of those things that is hard to understand, but I will add you to my prayer list. God can do anything!! :) There is a popular blogger, who was infertile for 2 years. She was on all of the fertility drugs and everything. She said after 2 years she got off the drugs, spent a week with no t.v./computer and just spent that week reading about faith in Hebrews and listening to God. Shortly after she became pregnant completely without any drugs. She owes it all to her faith, and now she is pregnant again with her 2nd girl - a complete surprise! Anything is possible - just pray and have faith and you'll be amazed at what God will give you! :)
    Big Fat Mama

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  10. Oh TV you know I have written about this quite a few times. I know how you feel and what you are going through. Now I have Little Chick asking me all the time why she does not have a brother or sister. Ugh! It breaks my heart! It is all up to God and in His time. I have learned this and it is a very hard and painful thing. If you ever want to e-mail me and talk you are welcome to. I really do understand how hard it can be. Have a great night my friend!
    Mama Hen

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  11. First, your daughter is gorgeous. Second, I love how positive you are... Third, I love sloths. Fourth, we struggled to conceive both of our boys. Big time. Without going into too much detail on here, I know all about infertility and it is not a fun ride! I imagine you are better at dealing with the emotions than me. It was a difficult time! I wouldn't trade all the years of heartache, though. Somehow I'm sure it made me a stronger & better person. Right? Maybe?

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  12. I am sorry to hear of your struggles. The world would be a better place with more of your gorgeous children in it :) I have finished making babies so I am sending you my (very) fertile vibes and wishing you a visit from the stork soon.

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  13. We had one baby easily and then had the secondary infertility which is now permanent. No one believes us and I'm not interested in disclosing the details to everyone we talk to. So that can be a touch annoying. It's curious to me that in society there are things too personal to talk about - I wouldn't waltz in and ask if you had a nice BM this morning, for instance. Yet, we can be all up in each others reproductive tracts. It's just strange.

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  14. Prayers for you, my friend. That you will find peace in his plan, and continue to revel in your blessings. You have such a wonderful perspective on this and life in general. This will work out exactly the way it is supposed to.

    Love the new pics of KLV. She's gorgeous, just like her Momma!

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  15. First of all...love your new pictures of you beautiful little girl! I am now positive another little beauty is in your future....what would the world be without another beautiful little human like that!!!??

    Good luck and more prayers are being put out there for you and your family!

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  16. My heart breaks for those who struggle with this because I can't imagine the emotional roller coaster and worrying that goes into it. I never know what to say that is supportive.

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  17. Have a great night TV! Just know you are not alone my friend!

    Mama Hen

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  18. I must say- I have a very hard time feeling guilty. I know many women who were trying conceive, and I got pregnant by my husband thinking about having sex with me. I try not to intrude or ask, but I am open to hear vents and how things are going with them. I wish you all the best trying to conceive. Your daughter is amazingly beautiful and is blessed to have an awesome mother like yourself :D

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  19. Thanks for your honesty in sharing this. I had little clue what it's like for moms with this struggle. Your daughter is adorably stunning, she takes after her mommy :)

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  20. You and I have A LOT in common! It took us 3 years of trying to conceive Frederick. Since, we have two miscarriages, a failed adoption, 6 failed rounds of Artificial Insemination and no money left to try IVF. Frederick is 9 and all I want is for him to NOT be an only child. Even though I tell people that I have given up I truly have not or I wouldn't be so disappointed every month when I'm not pregnant. Thank you for sharing your story. I have yet to go into mine as much as I could. But I have a post called BABY GIRL that touches a little on it. Feel free to stop by and take a look. LYLASandCO.com

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  21. My first child was born 11/6/1990, my second 7/12/2002, all I can say is never give up hope.

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  22. I completely understand how you are feeling. It took us over a year and many dr appointments before we were pregnant with Grace. No we have started trying for #2 and it feels like the whole process over again. Everyone kept saying with #2 it would probably be so easy and I began to believe them, unfortunately. I just keep reminding myself of the joy of seeing those pink lines and hoping I will see them again.
    Good luck to you :)

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