Tuesday, February 1, 2011

A Pattern Is Forming, I Can See It

It’s been 1 year since becoming a SAHM and I see a quarterly pattern developing.

A pattern of unrest; the feeling to do something more. I blog here and very part-time for a company called Spa for the Soul and that is rewarding. Parenting and being a wife are also rewarding but not always the kind of intrinsic reward I’m looking for.

Being a mother is admirable and based on my challenges to become a mother, I should be overjoyed to be just that – but I am human and quite imperfect. I hate that I feel that way.

Good news though, I have found that diving into my biggest goal, writing a children’s book, seems to simmer down that anxious feeling. For now.

Do you have a pattern in your life? If so, how do you move through it?

16 comments:

  1. I completely know how you feel. I have ALWAYS worked. And isn't being a mother a FULL TIME JOB?!?! I was feeling very unproductive as a person, even though Monk was thriving. Being content was a very difficult obtainable goal. Philippians 4:12 really helps me out in those situations where I just start to feel *blah* Good luck on your book! That's too exciting!

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  2. wow, good luck on the book-how exciting!

    Hm, I have stayed at home for over a year now and I feel as though blogging has helped me bring back my passion for wanting to help people live their healthiest life. I feel like I can touch so many lives, especially after meeting SO many wonderful blogger Mom's out there! we'll see what I do with my passion in the future, but I miss a lot of things about working, but wouldn't change being at home with my boys for the world! Can't we all have the best of both worlds??! Ha! Good post!!

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  3. So glad you have activities that give you time to feel engaged in the "outside" world! That will make you an even better role model for your daughter!

    Patterns? Oh my.. where do I begin? ;-)

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  4. That's so awesome! I think this happens to everyone...I feel that way about working outside the home. I looked at my W-2 last night and I thought...I'm away from my kids 40 hours a week for this? It's not even worth it. Well, as hubs pointed out, it is worth it (fincially and benefits) but sometimes it just doesn't seem like it. I try to always count my blessings and when I start to feel restless or like I need a change...I book a vacation. LOL!

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  5. I am so excited that you have a "thing" that you can work on that gives you that sense of fulfillment. I think we ALL understand. IT's only natural to need to have some us time and to work towards something that uses our gifts. Mine is photography, blogging and crafting. If I don't make a little time for those things each week I feel very drained. It's amazing how much energy boosts I can get from those simple activities! I look forward to the day your book is published!! How wonderful will that be!!

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  6. A children's book. Great! I think that would be a mavelous challenge. Pursue that goal! Hopefully I'll have grandkids in a few years to read it to!

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  7. I so get how you feel! I go through phases and will often feel the same way. I struggle with it because I am so grateful that I get to stay home with Abby and I know that being a mom is one of the best jobs in the world. On the other hand, it's been almost 2 years and I miss work. I miss having something outside the home or something that is rewarding to just me. Blogging has helped but I am always looking for ways to keep me busy in my off hours. I wish you luck in your book writing... it's an awesome idea and I'm happy that you found something to you are passionate about!

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  8. Sounds like you are taking action, and that always helps. I always feel so good when I take action on what I want to be doing.

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  9. Staying home is a long adjustment and then it changes as you move through it. I'm glad you have something simmering. Those goals keep everything moving in the right direction.

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  10. I'm so glad that you have the children's book to keep your unrest at bay. Even though I love staying at home with Georgia, I definitely find myself lonely for adult company. This winter has been especially hard because we've been stuck inside for so many days in a row. To combat that, I've started to write more, to get more into my photography, and to organize our home, room by room.

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  11. That is great that you are working on a children's book. It can be hard to be a stay at home mom because all of our focus is on our children. We do not think of ourselves first. It is the most incredible rewarding blessing in life! However, as you said, we are human and may want more at times. I think you are doing a great job my friend!

    Mama Hen

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  12. I admire your awareness of a quarterly pattern. I can so relate with that. When my kids were younger, I had bouts of unrest and felt guilty for "wanting more" than the joy of being a SAHM! That's great how you're writing a children's book, I look forward to when it gets published!!

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  13. I absolutely understand your desire for more. I think we're trained that being a stay-at-home mom should be enough, but the reality is that are kids are happiest when we are happiest. I think we need other goals in addition to taking care of our little ones. (Good luck on writing a children's book! I'm working on an e-book about high school students looking into college--it's one of my New Year's resolutions for now.)

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  14. Just realized you were a follower of mine, so ofcourse I want to follow you back!! Love you blog so far!

    jaxandmarbles.blogspot.com

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  15. You have two well deserved awards waiting for you! Have a great day my friend!

    Mama Hen

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  16. Best of luck with the book! I bet it will be wonderful. It is easy to fall into a pattern or a rut. That's why I started a blog - to learn something new, do something different. And maybe that's why we're going crazy with home improvement projects - it feels good to accomplish something outside of your normal routine.

    Hope you all have a great weekend! I woke up at 3am and have not been able to sleep. Nasty sinus infection and fever...AND my inlaws are supposed to visit. Sigh.

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